Oh, hi!

We talk, a lot. Not physically, but mentally. Often, we do that when we make choices such as waking up in the morning and questioning ourselves the very first question; Should I bath first, or brush my teeth? I'm feeling a little hungry. Of course, we mentally discuss it and make the decisions and start doing whichever activity we desire first.

Back early last year, my father had decided to get me a baby tortoise as a present for my SPM results, and I took her in as I was an animal person. When I first saw her, I mentally debated with myself the biggest question, "What should she be named?"

I eventually called her Izzie.

When I first saw her, I was afraid to touch her because she was moving all over the place and upturning everything in her glass box. But eventually I mustered up my courage and carried her out of her comfort zone...to the ground.

Fast forward to four months later, Izzie suddenly stopped becoming her perky self, and started to eat lesser as well as moving lesser. That was when I started debating with myself.
"Should I bring her to the vet? She's not looking too well."
"But she's walking around normally. Is that a good sign? I hope so."
"She's sleeping too much. That's not good, right? Please say it's normal for a tortoise to sleep the entire day and wake up just to eat."

One night when I was busy preparing for my presentation, I noticed that Izzie had stopped moving as much as she used to last time. I gently picked her up, and she felt cold. Panicking, I placed her under the light, hoping that she would revive. But morning came, and she had passed on by then. The emotional side of me said, "she was too young to go," but the realistic side said, "it was her time." It was as though I was comforting myself

During my first lesson in my Interpersonal Communication class, I learnt that when we communicate with ourselves, it was actually normal because we had to think of questions to ask our neighbors in a class activity, and that talking with ourselves was actually called intrapersonal communication, which is the process of using messages to generate meaning within self, and that it usually occurs in our own minds.

All in all, we do communicate within ourselves, whether we admit it or not. Don't believe me? Try stepping into a mamak stall and see what thoughts would arise in you. Would you want a teh tarik, or something else stronger? ;) and maybe a roti telur to go along with it? Aha. You be the judge, and you'll be communicating with yourself again!

Till then,
Eva :)